tl;dr

[foxxcub]

I wonder when my life became such that the highlight of my weekend is going to Starbucks by myself in my pjs and then driving around with Daft Punk cranking through my car stereo. It doesn't sound all that bad, but then I think about the days when I had weekly bowling dates with friends and Taco Tuesdays and Saturday breakfasts and nights out at stupid clubs with really cheap beer. I have none of that now; my friends live too far away or are dealing with job loses/no money and can't make the drive out to see me. I'm not all that close to the people I work with, and while I guess that could technically be my fault in the end, the ones I could see myself hanging out with are either parents with new babies (i.e. no time) or have way too much going on outside of work. I feel like the friends who moved out of state are starting to forget about me in the process of putting down new roots with new friends, friends who are actually close to be able to do little things like go out to dinner on a week day night.

The thing is, there are people on my flist who have it so much worse than I do. I know this. I know I'm employed with a decent job and have a husband with a really good job, and have a new house and car. But I also know that these people still have friends close by who care enough to call and email them, to do things with them on a moment's notice. I haven't actually been out with friends (RL, at least) since probably October. Maybe now's the time I should violate all my standards and get a damn MySpace; at least then I could actually feel like someone cared enough to friend me there.

Please don't take this post as me soliciting hugs or sympathy, I just really wanted to get this off my chest.

Comments

[boobookittifukk.livejournal.com]

First thing's first, any moment in the week when Daft Punk is playing should be a highlight. Just saying.

And hey, I totally get what you mean. Until I got back in touch with my now best friend after no contact with her for a couple of years (she had personal issues she was going through that no one outside of her immediate family knew about), I was just like you. I had no close friends at all. No one I could be silly with or just call up at a moment's notice to hang out. Hell, I can't even do the latter with my bestie because we're both so busy. But we keep in touch through LJ, emails and texts despite living ten minutes drive from each other, so it's all good.

However, my point is that maybe you just haven't found the right person/people to be that close friend/s? It might even really surprise you who that will turn out to be, because in terms of preferences in just about everything except music (the debates on Meyer's writing ability, or in my opinion, lack thereof, have had to stop because it gets kind of heated), my bestie and I are absolute polar opposites, so it really surprises people sometimes that we're such close friends who just get the other and can actually agree on things. Just keep an open mind and heart, and maybe make an effort to go out and socialise with both your work colleagues and perhaps the circle of friends you share with your husband. There might be someone tha you have met before already and just suddenly connect with, or you might meet someone completely new through an acquaintance with whom you just get along straight away and feel like you've known them forever. I've known my bestie since I was 14 and while she and I have always been good friends, we didn't become best friends until about three or four years ago.

Keep trying. You'll find someone or someones that you can have that close bond with. =)