He hears Spencer suck in a breath through a nose, and for a second, Jon panics, his heart jamming its way into his throat. He's gone too far, he's pushed Spencer, maybe, what the fuck is he even doing--

Then Spencer sighs and mumbles something that sounds like, "Shit, thank god," and all but melts against Jon, opening his mouth easily to Jon's kiss.

It's Jon's turn to be surprised. He blinks his eyes open without breaking the kiss, but they're so close, and he can see the dusting of freckles over Spencer's nose and the dark smudges of exhaustion under his eyes. You wanted this, too, he thinks hazily as Spencer splays his hand lightly over Jon's sternum, and he wants ask when and for how long and if this is just because Jon's taking care of him and Spencer somehow feels obligated. But he can't pull away to say the words, so he lets his eyes flutter closed again and leans into Spencer, cupping his jaw gently, as if Spencer will break if Jon pushes too hard.